Jarrod

Jarrod.
This is my best friends beloved, beautiful, precious son. He killed himself October 22, 2011.  I fear that he took her heart with him.  I understand.  I understand and feel her pain, and wish, with all my heart that there was something I could of done to help him.  To help her.  My heart aches for her, as the loss goes on...people say, time will make it easier, I don't think that is true.  With the loss of your child, it never heals. It never goes away. Its there, like quicksand, which sneaks up on you and will smother you if you aren't looking.
I cling to the promise of Christ in Revelation:  "He will wipe every tear from their eyes.  There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old is passed away." Revelation 21:4

This is my beautiful boy, Jordan....His graduation pictures are also on this blog!!! How much I love this child....words cannot describe it.

He is with you

I wanted to share one of my favorite songs with you...its been a favorite for a long time, because, each word just is an arrow to my heart, to remind me, the ultimate price HAS been paid.  There WILL be JOY in the morning.

There's a time to live
And a time to die
There's a time to laugh
And a time to cry

There's a time for war
And a time for peace
There's a hand to hold
In the worst of these
In the worst of these

He is with you when your faith is dead
And you can't even get out of bed
Or your husband doesn't kiss you anymore

He is with you when your baby's gone
And your house is still, and you heart's a stone
Cryin' "God, what'd You do that for?"
He is with you
There's a time for yes
And a time for no
There's a time to be angry
And a time to let it go

There's a time to run
And a time to face it
There is love to see you
Through all of this
Through all of this

He is with you in the conference room
When the world is coming down on you
And your wife and kids don't know you anymore

And He is with you in the ICU
When the doctors don't know that to do
And it scares you to the core
He is with you

We may weep for a time
But joy will come in the morning
The morning light
He is with you when your kids are grown
When there's too much space and you feel alone
And you're worried if you've got it right or wrong

Yes He is with you when you've given up
On ever finding your true love
Someone who feels like home
He is with you

When nothing else is left
And you take your final breath

I cling to these words.  Literally like they are a rope to Heavens door.